Fundamental Q & A

I realize it now, the importance of self discovery and planning one’s life on at least some level. Doing time abroad is a marvellous way to initiate this process. I have come to notice that I really have to develop my determination to things. I never would have thought, but I am in many ways a people pleaser, a sort of “yes yes person”. If someone asks me would you like to do something in the afternoon/evening/tomorrow/29th of May, I tend to agree before considering. Or I just vaguely mumble “maybe”. The time scope of planning my free time is easily only a few minutes.

Of course there are now so many more social life opportunities (i.e. more people asking about my plans) than what I am used to. I will have to think about what it is I really want to do, not just float to some happenings even if I should be somewhere else. I am pretty exhausted right now and dream of getting a good night sleep. But no, the most likely result of my upcoming Friday evening is a hangover + sleeping late tomorrow. I did plan to go to the gym, but…

And moreover… How I ended up here in Czech Republic also demonstrates this feature. I just drifted. In stead of a clear focus of which direction I want to direct my career to, I chose the place mainly cause a big group of trainees seemed like fun and the LC had a well maintained webpage. So not that very rational reasons… Some friends and acquaintances of mine are quite developed in self organising. They have a vision. They have developed action plans. They seem to be so damn satisfied in their little development paths. I envy that…and then again not so much. I kinda like surprises. Only I like them to come in some sort of framework. That works for me. One has to discover their own way of planning things. Gotta work on that.